28.9.08

Y no vino la musa...




Por más que quisiera, no pudo ser un poema este recuerdo, este suspiro filosófico que en este momento me supo inspirar. Será porque quería escribir un poema acerca de un poema, cuando al original en su profunda belleza no lo supe superar.

Y bien, al rumiar acerca de mi escualida existencia (y no sé si hago mucho más que eso) buscaba una imagen que pudiese pintar un sentimiento eternamente persistente y trágicamente común a todos los seres que me rodean. Algunos lo sienten de manera más aguda, otros prefieren ignorarlo, pero creo que todos conocemos el dolor visceral de la barbarie existencial.

No es nada nuevo, cualquier artista lo sabrá. En todo caso, al querer yo plasmar en el papel unas pocas palabras provistas de ritmo acerca del tema, se me vino a la mente la imagen más clara de lo que quería decir, pero esta ya había sido creada.

En una de las películas que viene a ser de mi infancia, Roberto Benigni es llevado bajo fusil a su muerte. Inevitablemente cruza en su camino la mirada de su hijo, quien se encontraba escondido para salvar su vida. Al hacerlo, Benigni juega, hace de su último marchar algo grandioso, haciendo reir al niño.

En mi niñez, me había conmovido este momento por todas las debidas razones. Sin embargo, hasta ahora nunca había visto a esta escena como una metáfora para la vida. Caminamos, bajo fusil, hacia la muerte; el reir y el hacer reir en este caminar es lo que viene por nustra cuenta.

22.9.08

Para...

La última en irse


Sola,
como tan solo ella
sabe tan sola yacer,
sin acompañamiento
más que el de luciérnagas,
la lánguida luna,
y el latente vapor
de licores de ámbar,
posada en su silla
reposa sus cuerdas
saciadas de sonar
su antigua serenata.

No han partido
quienes entonaron
trances melódicos,
sonámbulos coros
que saben pernoctar
el claro y la ausencia
de luna en añejos
espíritus que quiebran
su sosiego para
verterse salpicantes
al fluvial adagio
del cantar a la vida.

Querer que resuene
eterno el encanto
risueño de quienes
esta noche bohemia
a mi guitarra vieja
la hicieron cantar;
La fiesta ha terminado,
¡No partan, no se vayan!
Sus antiguos pasillos
cual cañón me estremecen;
cantenlos más, otra vez
más, asi indelebles
en mi memoria
para siempre puedan
perdurar.




19.9.08

A Child's Love

“One, two, three, four, five, six, nine and ten
Money can’t buy you back the love that you had then.”
-Leslie Feist

Young and full of spirit, the freshman was always keen to savour each and every word uttered in un inglese molto italiano by his POL 210 professor; he even found reason to jot down inspired notes. Despite his inexperience, he knew he’d seldom bear witness to such lucid oratory on political theory as his professor’s, and the ovation the class offered him at the end of this (and every other) lecture was a testament to this. After collecting his pen and notebook, he began to make his way out of the row of wooden seats, but he was stopped immediately in his tracks by a vision that stood in the way of his glance at the exit. Soaked by a midmorning stream of autumn sunshine pouring through the lecture hall’s magnificent floor-to-ceiling windows, a golden Nene delicately turned her neck towards him. Although flustered while concocting her own laborious egress from the lecture hall, she radiated an exotic kind of American beauty. The moment their eyes met, the brief sense of cosmic alignment, gave him a colorful memory that he would hold on to. Years hence, he’d wonder if the siren of fate had sung back then.

12.9.08

short story: Soul Manifesto

I am the spirit.

Maybe someone’s, but I’m the only conscious being I sense all around, so, I thought, that makes me ‘the’, not just ‘a’ spirit (if that is in fact what I am), so it seems unlikely I belong to someone in particular. Perhaps at some point I did belong...belong, to someone...but I wouldn’t know it, I can’t recall much, to be honest. I certainly don’t recall ever becoming separated from any particular body, traumatic that must be.

“I am the spirit” also has a nice ring to it, nice and ominous.

Truth is, I don’t really know what I am. Lacking any and all mirrors, it’s really impossible to know such a thing. I am a silent voice in a vacuum, or perhaps someone caught in one of the more extravagant cosmic phenomena. I could even be the result of a physicist’s botched search for gravitons.

It’s rather lonely, you see, floating or drifting or trans-dimensionally transforming, or doing whatever I do.

“It’s all light’s and colors around here...
...or so I hear.”

I tell myself, probably the funniest I’ve come up with in a while, but I can’t sense anything (or, to the same effect, there’s nothing to sense).

I have a lot of time to spare. Not that ‘time’ really plays a role in my universe, but it seems like an adequate phrasing of the matter, I think.

I think. Don’t ask how. At least I can string a few words together,

I’m just glad I can at least think to myself.

It would be impossible for me to know how long I’ve been here, or if any time has passed, but sometimes I think I’m fading.

Or am I becoming silent more frequently, maybe for longer.

I don’t really know.

It doesn’t seem important; eventually, something will happen or I get comfy for an eternity with myself.

Odds are, I’m in it solo for the long run.

11.9.08

poema

Son muchas las razones
del existir de los secretos,
más solo un secreto exquisito,
el que es
un pequeño torbellino
una titilante descarga
y, siempre,
un ensayo en picardía,
justifica su existencia
en la sutileza de la actuación
de sus guardianes.
Solo un secreto así
merece ser tan bien guardado,
haciendo de su custodia
una obra, y de sus guardianes
artistas bajo la luna nueva.

4.9.08

the desert is expanding

it might have something to do with global warming, desertification I mean...

...but yet another newly dried expanse has been sighted at zsg.

for the time being, i think it's tastier over there, in the way sushi is tasty.



but...
mentonia lives on.